You ever had a moment where you feel like a scared little kid? I’m in my basement because of the thunderstorm that’s happening. I hate thunderstorms. I’m not sure why, but I’ve always been scared of them since I was young. I’m not in an area where thunderstorms and tornados are an issue so I don’t understand my fear. Anyway, I feel like a little kid again being scared of something that’s not even a threat.

I guess it’s because I feel alone. My roommate moved out almost a year ago and since then, there hasn’t really been any storms. When there were, it was nice knowing that someone was here with me. Plus, our/her dog was terrified of storms and he’d just shake for hours even after it was over. Many times I’d lay with him and keep petting him until he calmed down. It was like we both comforted each other. This is the first storm since she moved out and the loneliness hit me like a brick wall tonight. Sirens are going off and it was recommended that the public should seek shelter immediately. About a year ago, we had to go to the basement because of thunderstorms. We ended up just chilling on the couch, comforting the dog, and watching youtube until it was over. I came down here tonight and realized there was no roommate, no couch, and no dog. The basement is cold and dark and I’m just sitting on the floor by myself. Loneliness is here and I don’t want it to be.

I feel like a little kid again, being scared of storms and it doesn’t help being by myself. It’s cold and dark and feels scary. I know the storm shouldn’t last much longer, but the emptiness has been here for too long. I guess I never knew how scary it could be until now.