That is as simply as I can put it. I love being around you and I love you. I envy you, it’s like you’ve always known who you are and you’re comfortable with your identity. I wish I’ve known who I was and sometimes I still don’t know. But, all I do know is that I love who I am when I’m around you. It’s like nothing else matters and the world makes sense. After going through my entire life hating myself, I love me when I’m with you. I don’t have to think and I can just live in the moment. All of the chaotic headnoise I feel falls silent when I’m with you. I never want to leave any moment I spend with you. You are absolutely wonderful and I love being around you. I love getting to know you: your hopes and dreams, the way your brain works, your past, and your joy, all of it. I love you.

I never want to jepordize our friendship, but it would feel so good just to tell you all of this. I wish you knew. Even if you didn’t feel the same way towards me, it would feel so good to say it out loud and have you just know. Like I said, I wouldn’t want to put our friendship at risk or anything, but I feel so comfortable and I want you to know that. I thank you so much because no one has ever made me feel this safe. You make me smile and I love you. You have my heart.